I just miss you. I know our lives have become a complete chaos lately. I know we don’t have time like we used too. But I miss you. I’m willing to make time. I hope you feel the same. I know I have changed in some things but I promise I’m still the same jan. I’m a better jan I just don’t do the things I used too which I know it’s hard to believe. But it was personal choice and I’m much happier. And no I’m not going to shove what I am in your face, it’s all personal if your curious ill tell you. I respect. I just want what we had back. Somehow we haven’t told us anything I hardly know what’s going on with you as your hardly know what’s going on with me. We didn’t even have to ask each other, we would call and just say it. And now it’s almost like we are strangers. It makes me sad. And I’m disappointed in myself because maybe I haven’t tried hard enough and I apologize. I just want you back. We have a broken relationship. And I just wanna fix it. We were always different but the same. I don’t want to lose you like dad. Because now that would be another empty place in my heart. Love you so much. And miss you deeply. We don’t have to be super bestest friends, I just want to be your sister again.